I just read Deb Crawford's blog and I have to say I agree with everything she said about the service and the new building this morning. It was awesome! I felt such an air of expectancy. So much excitement! I am so looking forward to the new year and new beginnings!
These last couple of years have been kinda tough spiritually for me. I've made some mistakes, learned how very human I am, and generally have found myself looking up from the bottom of some deep well. But, I think I'm on the way up. I can't promise I'll never make mistakes again or that I will always make the wisest choices, but I know more now WHY not to give in to my humanness so readily. Do you find that you're really quick to defend yourself? That you can't just say, "It's my fault, please forgive me" and really mean it? Why as a Christian do I have such problems with that? I realized today that I get really angry when my husband won't do that but then in getting angry I was doing the very same thing myself. I didn't want to admit my fault because I thought he ought to admit his. We are so quick to justify! At least I am. Just when I think I have arrived and have become so spiritually aware and very willing to sacrifice, I do something really foolish and selfish and prove again how desperately I need a savior!